These are some (probably not all) of the projects I’m working on.
Having a future (started October 2006)
I have been working on a video about having a future. It is aimed specifically at children like the child I was, who could not envision my place in society as an adult, and whose reactions to being unable to envision that place had drastic consequences in our lives. I want to show how there is so much more to our futures than the things we can imagine, or than the things others can imagine for us.
Recognizing and dealing with overload (started December 2006)
This video would also be aimed at autistic people, whether younger or older. It would be about how to recognize and manage overload, which are things a lot of us are never taught explicitly. We’re often not taught them because acknowledging the existence of things like overload and shutdown would undermine a lot of “therapies” that say that it’s possible for us to behave like non-autistic people, consequence-free, if we just try hard enough. This video would reinforce our natural ways of dealing with overload and possibly add more if the person hadn’t heard of them.
Personal dictionary of facial and body expressions (started December 2006)
A lot of people can’t understand my facial expressions and body postures (or even accuse me of having none, which isn’t true). I’m not sure whether this video will be public or whether I will only show it to staff. I have been trying to drag the camera out every time I spontaneously am doing something related to emotions or even various physical states, in order to capture these things the way they are since I can’t really bring them on on purpose. This is taking forever, for obvious reasons. I don’t know if or when I will finish it.
More going on than people think (started June 2007)
I’ve been really sick for the past couple months, and have not had as much energy as usual. One day I was thinking of all this material that I needed to write or put in video, but the moment I actually moved to do it, I was unable to write it, everything would just fall apart the moment I started moving. So I set up the video camera, pointed it at the spot I was sitting, and sat back down and kept on coming up with ideas. If anyone had tried to hold a conversation with me at the time I probably wouldn’t have been able to. I still have that video footage, but have not attached the words to it yet. The words would convey how much more was going on in my head at this time than a person might expect, and how if I’d moved and become more interactive-looking I’d have lost everything I knew, and how many people in my life have accidentally reversed this, assuming the more “interactive” I look the more I am showing understanding and thought and stuff.
Variation among non-autistic people (not started yet)
Video of a non-autistic person in a lot of different situations. Commentary on the way that, for instance, in one situation she might be smiling and socially engaged, and in another situation she might be frowning and concentrating on something, in one she might be energetic and in another tired. Contrasting her mannerisms across different contexts. And then reacting to her in the same overly-suspicious way that autistic people are often reacted to when our movements or moods or abilities vary across circumstances.
Different levels of movement (not started yet)
Showing different kinds of movement, and the different levels of difficulty of each.
Note: On YouTube and LiveVideo I am silentmiaow and amandabaggs only. Anyone else claiming or appearing to be me should not be believed unless I change this space.